life after sakuracon

So I've returned home after a very exhausting weekend in Seattle at Sakuracon. It was a weekend filled my many events, many memories, many joys, and unfortunately some frustrations. First off, I did not oversell myself on the High and Mighty Color concert. It was everything I expected it to be and more. I thoroughly enjoyed it except the fact that it is really hard to head bang and rock out while recording the concert. I'm also very happy that I acquired their new cd and have a poster with all band members' autographs. I also managed to get them to sign my old cd. The rest of the con was filled with friends, random people, and lots of photos. Reuniting with old friends is a great feeling.

I returned home to a roommate who was once again allowed to consume alcohol seeing that lent was over and thus began an even longer week. I have consumed alcohol for a week and a half straight. And no, not in moderation. It has been atleast a bottle of something per day. I'm not speaking bottle of beer, I mean wine or liquor. And while being fun and ending with a great party this Saturday, I am more exhausted than when I got home from Seattle. I am looking forward to this week being relaxing even though this weekend is my roommate's 22nd birthday. Sadly I will not be able to go to Seattle with her to enjoy her bday festivities due to my work schedule.

In other aspects of life, I enjoyed a nice leisurely walk from my apartment to Barnes & Noble in the rain today. Although it could have been raining harder, the fact that it was raining helped me to clear my head. I truly do miss my long walks in the rain while living in Japan. I find it to be refreshing. I think this week will be filled with lots of walks. I need the time away from home, away from people, away from me. I've been doing a lot of thinking again, regardless of the ridiculous amounts of alcohol drinking. I've realized that I've been avoiding my friends, they've just been irritating me with the smallest things. Don't know why. Hopefully in a week or so I will be back to my calm self and hang out with my friends again.

The other subject that my mind has been wandering off to is the ever lasting search for "the one." I'm almost certain that "the one" doesn't exist. Is it that I don't want to meet some wonderful girl and fall in love? No, it's just that that is not at the top of my priority list. I'm not turning down dates, just not actively searching. Yes, I still ask girls out on dates, but strictly for the purpose of becoming friends. My hopeless romantic side has gone dormant. It has faded from years of being under appreciated and a few months of inactivity. But life is full of surprises. Maybe the girl that will open me back up is right around the corner, who knows.

Overall, I'm happy, but still feel that I need a change of pace and to move to the city. I have grown tired of Bellingham and it has nothing to offer me. I still hope that I will be able to transfer to Seattle and live the city life once again. The environment itself will help me steer back onto the track of being self-motivated and being a go-getter. I will reach those new heights and reach my ultimate goal of surpassing my father.