Life Anew

I have finally succumbed to the life of blogging. I no longer feel I can retain all of my emotions, thoughts, feelings, and what-have-its bottled up inside of me. I have decided, although a bit late, to start sharing my adventures of 2010 with the web and anyone who cares to probe at what goes on in my head.

I'll start with saying that I recently got a new job at Chase bank after being unemployed for 3 months. Although those times were relaxing, it was also stressful to not have an income and it is very comforting to be back at work. I finished my last week of training last week in Seattle, WA. It was a very enjoyable 3 days of training and my stay in Seattle has brought upon other adventures. My adventures start with my sheer boredom after training and not knowing what to do for my first night all alone in Seattle. I decided upon going to Gameworks where I tend to find the most comfort, seeing that I grew up in Japan and it is the closest thing in WA that comes to an arcade. I can't seem to help my flirty nature anymore for I flirted a girl that worked at the counter while she offered me good customer service.

After a few hours of gaming and being tired from being up since 6 am, I decided it was time for me to retire back to my company paid hotel room. But before leaving, I tried something that was out of the norm for me. I impulsively asked the girl out on a date. She agreed to meet me the next day for dinner, which brings my Tuesday to a close. Wednesday evening, I met her at Starbucks and we went to dinner followed by a movie. We spent a decent amount of time together, including having a couple of beers back at my room and sharing music. The night came to a close with me walking her home. I felt satisfied with this date, but maybe that's just me.

I receive a text message a couple of days later from this girl stating that she does not want to date me and thought it was just a friendly meeting. I have never expressed wanting to date her. Is it wrong for a guy to want to meet people for the purpose of making new friends and then just seeing where things go in the future? Why must a guy always have ulterior motives? Was I supposed to just sleep with this girl and never call her again? Is that all she wanted? So many questions in which I can not find the answers to and am afraid I will never find the answers to. Should I stop being the nice guy and become like all of the other guys out there who are truly looking for just one night stands? Only time will tell what I should do with myself. As of now, I am going to concentrate on my career.

Thank you for taking the time to read my first blog entry. Hopefully my thoughts will be more consolidated for future entries. As for now, I'm a little lost in my personal life. Things will look up though. I'll think positive and there's no way that 2010 will be worse that 2009.